My birthday is officially over.. I would like to thank Allah swt for letting me live everyday of my life.. Through all the pain and hardship in this world that i suffer is just a test from god.. Got to go through every problems and endeavours with patience as they come.. Yan needs to learn not to let his emotions roll and keep his temper intact.. Allahu Akbar.. God is great.. Looking at the future one day at a time..

Went to buy for myself a "birthday cake" from Polar.. Saw my secondary school friend, Zuli.. Wished me a happy birthday.. Then went to buy my cake and waffle.. For someone who lives in Pasir Ris, my friend do not know that Polar sell waffles.. Haha.. Guess most of you won't know too.. WhiteSands Polar sells waffles :P


Yeah this is the "birthday cake" that i buy for myself.. And the waffle too.. My sister bought for me the the bendera doughnuts from Dunkin' Donuts..
Worst birthday ever? Pathetic? Fact or Fiction? You readers decide..

The rain falls on my windows
And the coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don't want to be alone
I wish that I could photoshop
All our bad memories
Cuz the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won't leave me alone

If you come back to me
I'll be all that you need
Baby come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)

Lower East Side of Manhattan
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this and she buys that
Just leave her alone
I wish that he would listen to her side of the story
It isn't that bad, it isn't that bad
And she's wiser for it now

I admit I cheated
Don't know why I did it
But I do regret it
Nothing I can do or say can change the past

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)

Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I'm sorry babe
I was too young to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity got the better of me
Baby take it easy on me

Anything from A to Z
Call me what you wanna babe
I open my heart to thee
You are my priority
Can't you see you've punished me
More than enough already
Baby take it easy on me

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)

Tak Pernah Aku Membayangkannya
Bila Insan Sedang Patah Hati
Kali Ini Ku Rasakan Sesungguhnya

Siang Hariku Bagaikan Malam
Pelangipun Berwarnakan Kelam
Inikah Yang Dinamakan Patah Hati

Tak Ingin Kujalani Cinta Yang Begini
Yang Kutahu Cinta Itu Indah
Tak Ingin Kurasakan Jiwa Yang Tak Tenang
Kumau Kau Tetap Disisiku

Dan Tak Ingin Kurasakan Jiwa Yang Tak Tenang
Kumau Kau Tetap Disisiku

Siang Hariku Bagaikan Malam
Pelangipun Berwarnakan Kelam

I was officially born in this world at Kandang Kerbau Hospital Singapore on 27th August, 1984 at 1133hours..

*Updates* Thanks for the birthday wishes via sms - my sayang Liza, my mum, Zuli and Marlia..

*Updates* Thanks for the birthday wishes via Facebook - kakak(makcik Liza), my cousin Didi, Jian Hui, Zul and Yong Hua..

*Updates* Thanks for the birthday wishes via sms - Shamira (2.35pm), Fatin (6.44pm), Neroshaa (11.55pm)..

*Updates* Thanks for the birthday wishes via Facebook - Cheng Yen (2.55pm), my cousin Amirah (9.50pm), bibik(makcik Lina) (10.15pm)..

*Updates* Thanks for the belated birthday wish via MSN - Qiuli..

TT
No one gave me a birthday wish sms.. Nothing.. I'm gutted..
This really shows i got no friends at all..
I'm just an invisible man that never existed..
Maybe people take me for granted..
Guess i'm everybody's fool..

kau membuat ku berantakan
kau membuat ku tak karuan
kau membuat ku tak berdaya
kau menolakku acuhkan diriku

bagaimana caranya untuk
meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
ku sadari ku tak sempurna
ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakitiku
lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
cinta ini membunuhku

bagaimana caranya untuk
meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
ku sadari ku tak sempurna
ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go

This could be our 4 months together.. But we are separated sadly.. But as she say: "Love means letting go".. So if she comes back she's yours.. So looks like i have to wait.. As i use to say her before i can wait forever.. For me i said to her: "If u cannot handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best"..
So i'm just hoping for a happy ending.. If not maybe a new beginning for her life and mine.. So i'm patiently waiting for my baby girl to come back.. Hopefully.. Period..